Ride the Wheel

It's a challenge to stay at the centre of the wheel of change. It's like riding the merry-go-round in a playground. The centre is the safest part to stay, with much less risk of being thrown off. Yet the centrifugal forces of our emotions threaten to send us to the edge as we struggle to maintain our grip of the centre. The longer we can stay there, the more laughter we experience in the face of adversity. I've been experiencing that too. Today was a bit of a challenge and I rode the ledge for a couple of hours. Having this perspective of existence that I've spoken of before, I'm finding it easier to find my way back to centre. Even so, I've also noticed that to edge away a bit from centre propels me into more action. There's a fine line there that must be negotiated. The dance of life.

Never Give Up

You know, I just responded to someone this evening and wrote that I could see the light at the end of the tunnel. We all know that saying. When times are hard and the situation seems hopeless, we usually turn a corner and can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Looking at the situation, I fully saw this about a month or two ago and figured that the light at the end of the tunnel would've materialized by now. I mean, it's there, just not here yet. I still have more tunnel to go through. In the dark, I've noticed, the distance of the light is deceiving. Will I reach the opening today, tomorrow, next week, next month, or 2006? I don't know. Hanging on is really tough some days but I still refuse to give up.